My species

Thoughts on my mind....musical jargon and..well...fear. Why do we as a human race fear. Is it just because it's such an overpowering, and eager to take flight emotion? Can it be the symbolism of the grim reaper, or tombstone that send us cowering? Can it be the dark diction or moving picture of it all? I would like to express both things on my mind so I will travel through the fear of musicians.

Sadly my favorite thought about fear or death didn't come from FDR and doesn't apply to the wonderful mind of a musician. (All we have to fear is fear itself, for those not familiar) Also there are so many things to be taught about fear. Religion starts with the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, and some religious places make you feel guilty or unclean just because you do fear. Athletics (well back in my day) taught us to use fear to motivate, overcome, and put it in our opponent. But thats not the road I want to travel for now.

For fear my mind always drifts to the quote from the movie Coach Carter by student Timo Cruz. "Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us." This quote was first established by Marianne Williamson. A lady i revere for her wisdom just not her ideals. Yet that tid bit of inspiration hits like a hammer.

Musicians are a breed of their own, and as one I must say that this quote could be used to almost define the demeanor of us all. Some people see us as stuck up because we believe in ourselves so dang much. Others see us as a waste of time because there are musicians everywhere. So on behalf of my species let me just say...ugh! First off there are not a lot of musicians there are a lot of people who play. There are tons who play but real musicians breath music. Not the overdone kid panting trying to write music and all stressed out....blah. They have to play music to feel alive, to feel worth something, to feel like they unite in the cosmos of the world. We become stuck on ourselves because either- A.) We see something in ourselves that makes us fearful. B.) Nobody has ever told us to practice more and we think we are the best thing since sliced bread. P.S. not even other musicians like the latter!
Allow me to elaborate on the first. We see the world different than you other homosapiens. Kind of like Neo in the matrix. We can be beaten, cussed, spit on, and given the worst news possible but it only takes one note or one chord to bring us back to happiness. The dangerous thing for us is when we realize this and grow. We see endless amounts of every emotion and we strive to  breath it to life. 
I don't know about you and your "calling", or "profession", is in life but that last sentence is what causes us (musicians) to FEAR. Yeah getting on stage in front of people can be fearful, and the possibility of rejection can be terrifying. What we really fear is the rejection of how we connect with the cosmos. By that I mean the feelings that we bring in our music are from our deepest point and we want to have a relation or connect it with the listeners. The intimacy that comes with true music is not easy, and definitely not easy for us to open up and give out. Thus why you see so many musicians being extremely shy or not wanting to play for anybody but their friends. For myself I will never be shy for an accolade from a panel of judges but I will almost always fear the public.